mwahhhahahah... evil is upon me...

Oh dear... So as if my room wasnt already junkie and trashy enough... i NOW have almost every bit of my apt IN MY ROOM! i have candles, candle holders... lets see there are 1...2...3...15 candle holders, can you tell i love me some candles??? (and half of them STINK, haha, i lite only the good ones.) ANyways, i have all my road signs all my wall hangings, my pictures, and meds, and everything small in my room. If you havent heard either thru grandma or thru my mother or father, i'm in the process of getting rid of my roommate. As the other post stated we had a falling out and if im not mistaken, she stole my toaster already. im almost postitve its mine but if its not, then my bad. all the funiture in my apt was either given to me or was hawked so i'm not TOOOOOOOOOOO terribly worried if she attempted to take it, but i would be uspet either way. so i got all the things in my apt that i would be devistated if she took and stashed it in my room. i now, mother, can NOT walk thru my room. as if it wasnt hard enough before, its almost impossible. i would take a picture but lets keep it... ISC... Imagine super clean... ha. i cant fit my dining room table in here or else it too would be in here alond with just about everything else. the only things that are left out there AS OF THIS MOMENT, are my dishes, soap and my table and cleaning suppies under the sink. oh and my coffee table and end table and recliner.well, im going to hurry shower and get out of here cuz i dont want ot be home when she sees the apt almost empty. hahahahaha. had my laugh. i'm done.

OHHH what a month.

So, its almost 6am and i'm going to update myt blog because its in SEVERE need of an update. it might be short but then again i may just go ahead and rant... lets see. in the past month, i have realized your friends are NOT who they seem to be, and only some REALLY REALLY good friends will come to your apartment in their pj's with a baseball bat to beat some dude up.... yea. lets see. my roommate, whom i have been friends with since 8th grade, decided to date a psyco. yea. i guess i will put it that way. he's come over, eaten my food and told me that i've obviously been too doped up on my medicine (or "recreational drugs", which by the way I DO NOT DO, just to clear that!!!!!!) but i have apparently been "messed up" and eaten all my food. ok. DO NOT MESS WITH A BIG GIRL AND HER GROCIERIES! i know what i buy, when i buy it and when i eat it. THANK YOU VERY MUCH, put that in your juice box and suck it! (ok this looks like its going to be a rant... buckle up.) then on top of that he'd (the new boyfriend whose name is cody) been threatening my friend who jennifer dated earlier in '08 and threatening to beat his "butt" to put into clean words. well, i dont care who you care if someone is threatening bodily harm, i'm going to let you know. well. stephen, is the ex's name which whom i am friends with, and i told him. well, i come home to have a "come to jesus meeting" with jennifer and tell her its either me moving out or her and she's all "he's crazy he wont leave..." so i tell her to come out and lets talk. we figured (there is alot more but i'm really trying to make it short) anywyas, we figure the past two months have been living HADES and its all because of him. so we agree on going upstair and i'm going to put a fire under his rear and kick him out. well, i look at jennifers door and there is a FIST PRINT! he got mad and "accidentally" put his fist in the door. yea, ok. i go ballistic. evenitably, my friends are texting me and decided they are coming over to handle it. my ex bobby, stephen and my friend marc come up to my door with a BASEBALL bat. only thing was cody left 5 minutes before they got there. well, i've told jennifer cody is not allowed at the apt... that lasted a few days and here he is layin up on the couch in the living room. so we get into it... more or less. jennifer is signing the lease over to me wednesday- which is tommorow. i hate that our friendship is going to end like this. but i guess i see who my real friends are. i've had alot of eye openers this month. i realized the past few days my parents, which i already knew this all along, my parents love me unconditionally, and are willing to help me in any way they can. they will stand beside me and fight with me. and i cant tell them enough how much they mean to me. its been soooooo hard living 45 minutes away. i miss my parents more and more and more each day. and jacob and pokey and roxy and miley.... the whole family. its hard not seeing my dad everyday and only having at least a phone call a day, when i'm really wanting to go sit and talk face to face with him. and my mom, its hard not to stay longer on the weekends and stay more during the week because i miss my mom so much! its really hard being away from my family. my grandparents love me and i need to see them more. and i really have great friends who will stand behind me and fight with me. not really fight but who would be willing, haha. its been a really really hard month. and i hope its all going to get better, which im sure it will. i'm going to bed because i'm hungry and i dont want to wake my roommate up and have another morning like i had the other night... night.